i think this upcoming week is going to be very quiet for me. last week was insanely social (by my standards) - and while altogether positive and fun, means i so need some personal time now. it's still funny to me the way this comes on, and it's something, i think, i need to get better at...anticipating, maybe. somehow in realizing that i should have disengaged from whatever social-scene i'm at and returned to my private life, i feel compelled to delay the point at which i actually do so. and no matter how much i enjoy the company of the people i'm with at that time, it always leaves me feeling like i've over-stayed (and it's entirely possible i feel this way because i do, in fact, over-stay).
it's a weird very muted form of anxiety, that one is.
[this space previously (as in yesterday when i started this) held a rather dull summary of how packed my week was...which i will now attempt to make even more brief and thus likely even more dull]
Monday: dinner w/ CF; drinks with CF, AW, and their curly haired friend with the bad ticker. home 12ish
Tuesday: Housing Works; walk past all the kids outside the bowery and on through china town to east broadway. home 10:40ish
Wednesday: young alum's gathering with BB and ZF; concert with EL, ZF and along with the whole proto gang (which is not surprising since some of them were in the bands); hookah with ES, AHo, DV and friends. home 2ish?
Thursday: i don't remember thursday. maybe i swam? [i appologize if you are among the forgotten thursday. i'm sure you're still quite important to me as a person and i will miss you if you leave me so please don't.]
Friday: picnic in central park with AHo; desert on the east side with AHo and DV. forgot to follow up on the lecture. drat. home 1ish.
Saturday: arty plans - cancelled due to heat and unfathomableness of being around people before 7pm; dinner with LZ; DV's party. where there were many people i hope someday to have the opportunity to know better as they all seemed cool. home n/a.
Sunday: beer garden attendance with BB - cancelled due to being 'done' and having a stomach ache, head ache, and general lethargy entirely out of proportion to the amount of alcohol that entered my mouth in lieu of being tossed in mock retaliation at being spilled on. not only home, but also asleep 6:30pm-7:45am.
this monday and tuesday i have succeeded in being minimally social though i did enjoy the games of pool i ended up playing at the brooklyn burger bar after stopping in for dinner after my swim last night.
since starting this post, i have become progressively more stressed out about just about all the things i was ignoring the fact that i was avoiding in being so excessively out and about last week: the site i'm supposed to build for my step-mother's film course; the cost of living i'm not entirely keeping up with; the grad program i've yet to complete my application for; the family members i've been remiss about calling back and who i do miss quite dearly; the writing i haven't done; the brain i haven't expanded; the room i haven't cleaned; the friends i haven't quite solidly made...it goes on. and thus we arrive back at the idea that excessive socializing can be a very good thing. tomorrow night: drinks?, concert?, movie?, lecture?, art show?, any and all...who's in?
Get your application done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
also, me
Posted by: Kara | Wednesday, 13 June 2007 at 15:54