$disanpoter

just a little

so i was just taking a breath to condense my thoughts and the meta-me chimed in with "just a little overwhelmed here. i'm just a little overwhelmed today...just a little," causing my ears to send me into that dusty springfield song "just a little lovin' " (early in the morning). why? why does it do that? i'm not even such a fan of that song (mmm ?ditty?).   

what i need

is someone who can ride my wave with me. someone who takes me at my word when i say something bothers me and when i say something doesn't and gets it. none of that evasive bullshit of fucking with the natural rhythm of the realtionship and its interaction to enforce out of a perceived need some quality or aspect or control. i get so tired of people saying they want that and they're that same pitch of low-key but intense interest and then falling into the same games. so tired.

argh!

I would find a lot of satisfaction in pulvarizing a brick wall right about now...

oh YES!

I completely forgot my space heater was on - why? because my noise cancelling headphones are in and they did what they're meant to! mmmmm....simple pleasures.

ack

what's going on with this blog!? It's double speaking where there is no double speaking...

Oh No!

i've developed a severe addiction to Easy Mac: Extreme Cheese. it's not good...but it's so. good. !!